Audrey's Diary Room

[Audrey]

-Week One-
Hello beautiful people of Rise & Fall! It's so good to be playing again. I have had sometime to talk to all the houseguests. Some great convos and of course some not so great ones. The only people that stick out to me are of course JMac, Jackie, Vanessa and also Zach. I feel like being in the USA clique is what made JMac, Jackie, Vanessa and I closer because we're like teammates now for this HoH challenge. JMac was talking to me earlier and wants to stick together and feel like the USA should have each others backs. Him and I also did the challenge together. I sucked at the challenge as usual. He did great though he found way more potatoes than me. He told me to not get upset with myself over the challenge lol, he seems like a positive person and I love positive people. Vanessa sounds like a sweetheart and a team player. Jackie is cool chick. I like our convos. I wanna get a better bond from her though so I'm gonna work on that. Overall I wanna stick to these people and have them trust me. No alliance talk just yet, not worried about it because it's still very early in the game so we shall see.

Zach is someone outside the clique that I enjoy. He keeps convos flowing. I would like to form a stronger bond with him as well. I've had one convo with Kevin and I thought he was funny. We talked about BB17 and BBCAN3 and about our characters. I told him there will be blanketing this season and he wants to go blanketing with me lol! 

Everyone else right now is "eh" to me. Penny has this party girl schtick going on with her. Michael is all lovey dovey. I find it very hard to keep a convo going with Charlotte and Pilar. Like I actually try with Pilar because she's always on but it goes nowhere. She kept saying she wanted a group chat with the whole cast and the whole time I was thinking "God, please nooooooo." Then it happened and now theres group chat with everyone.
 

Right now I would say Aisha, Sara and Ray are the least active out of everyone. Aisha and Ray apparently work like 12+ hours at their jobs. And then Sara's convos consisted of growing old and snow...lol.

I hope I'm making a good impression on everyone. It would suck if someone saw me as a potential first boot if they become first HoH. Have to keep being social, but at the same time I don't want to be overly social. In season 7 I was already getting painted as the person who was on AIM all the time and it was barely like two rounds into the season. Hoping Team USA aka Team BB17 will do good in this challenge. Immunity would be lovely lol. Anyways, I'm stoked for the season and looking forward to what RNF12 has to bring. Let's do this!

P.S. - The board looks amazing and the new memory wall is awesome. My pic for my Diary Room is hilarious, Cocoon Audrey! Also, every time I log onto the board I always try and sign in as Brittany on accident because I'm so use to playing as her lol. I'll miss that milf. In honor of my 4th boot queen heres a video tribute I found.

[Kat]

#miraclesdohappen

[Audrey]

Ommmmmggggg hoping for a video confessional tonight if my internet let's me!

[shadow]

comp BEAST!

[Audrey]

No video confessional tonight, internet sucks too much. Sorry y'all 

But anyways, is this real life? Did hell freeze over? Did I just win an HoH? Dreams do come true. 
My phone blew up with messages from AIM when results came up. That never really happened before. Is this what winning comps feel like? Was I the new Queen Bee? lol jk. But really, I've never been swamped with so many messages before. 

Anything I do in this game I want it to be strictly on what I think is best for my game and not from what other people want me to do. I don't want to just hand my HoH to someone. If what I end up doing is a bad mistake then I'll learn from it and move on. As of now I think the best choice obviously is to nominate two people who I think are the least active. After all, it seems to be tradition in the first round to always go for the least active people. As of now those inactive people are Aisha and Ray. They both seem very sweet but I've had very brief convos with them. Everyone else says the same. Some people don't even have Aisha on their AIM list. 

I'm using this HoH to try and get closer to some people that I haven't had the best time talking to. Like Pilar for example. I used this as an opportunity to talk some game with her and after telling her that I wouldn't be putting her up, she said that if she ever won an HoH that she wouldn't be putting me up and that she liked me lololol. I don't know how much of that is true but I hope she keeps that "I wont put you up either" deal.  The same goes for Adam, I think him and I are doing a bit better than what we were. Michael and Godfrey continue to be just fine in my book. I've been working on Zach and Kevin and hopefully making that bond I have with them stronger than what I think it is. I'm hoping that feeling is mutual. Team America is pretty much at an agreement that we have each others back.

Penny, Sara and Charlotte continue to make no impression on me. Sara did message me saying congrats but then logged off.  These people are re-nom choices if veto happens to be used, which I'm hoping that it won't be lol. Also, Michael told me today that he doesn't like his clique. He says they're all inactive and that he likes people outside his own clique. He pretty much dragged them lol. I messaged Gerry this morning but he never replied. He had been online through out the day. And he was on the board here and there. Then after results came up he was on AIM but still never replied. He seems to be a social butterfly from what I've been hearing from people so I don't know what's going on there lol. 

I want to be able to have good HoH management and not be able to piss anyone off besides the two nominees. You can't please everyone being HoH. Haven't talked to everyone just yet but I'm prepared to be swamped again in the morning. Hoping for the best this week. 

[Audrey]

Flashback to All-Stars 2 when Brian won HoH and took forever to post noms and I was talking all this crap on how he took forever. Fast forward to me taking forever to post noms this season lol. Karma on me. The reason why I took awhile to post noms was because I wanted to tell the nominees I was going to put them up. Just wanted to be nice lol. But I never got to tell Aisha. I picked Adam to play veto because he offered and I knew he wouldn't play it. He ends up winning and I was glad he did. 

Out of Aisha and Ray, I'm hoping Aisha is the one that gets the boot. After the ceremony Aisha messages me and tells me "Thanks for my key! O wait lol". She continues to tell me she was shocked that I put her up lol. Like for real? I've had more convos with other people than I had with her. Then she told me she regretted voting for me for HoH. She tried making me feel guilty with my nominee choices by saying that out of everyone, she's talked to me the most and thought we were cool with each other. In the end she says that it's okay and that there's no hard feelings. It's completely fine to be upset when getting nominated but I don't know why she was so shocked that she was up. Ray seemed like he understood why he was put up. He could very well be upset but at least he seemed to have taken it better than Aisha.

Even though I would like to see Aisha leave, I feel like the votes just won't happen. I've been hearing from people that some of the HG's are on the fence when it comes to the vote. Some people don't care who leaves. Jackie told me that Michael and Vanessa want to keep Aisha. Vanessa has been wanting to talk to me about the vote but every time I'm on I don't hear from her. Michael messaged me today and randomly asked if I didn't like Aisha. That he has been hearing that I don't care for her and just don't like her. I replied back to him and told him that its not true. I think Aisha is cool but she was just one of the people that I connected the least with. Then he says that he figured people were just making it a bigger deal then what it was because he knew I wasn't the type to just not like someone for no reason. 

Now this is what people are telling me face to face. I talked to Pilar and Charlotte and they seemed like they might vote to evict Aisha. Godfrey says he rather keep Ray over Aisha. Adam told me yesterday that he didn't care if Aisha left. Jackie enjoys Ray way more than Aisha. Gerry thinks that Aisha is a mess and "dodgy" and rather see her go. Zach and Kevin told me that Aisha talks to them more but would do what I would like to have happen. So if all these people say they are thinking about voting Aisha out then why do I feel like it won't happen? Why am I still hearing that people are on the fence? For it being the first round I feel like I'm making this more stressful than it should be. I mean it shouldn't even be stressful at all lol. I don't think my HoH management hasn't been great either. As far as deals go I have these "watch each others back" deals. I have these "you didn't put me up so if I win HoH then I won't put you up" deals. But as far as alliances go, I'm in none besides probably Team America. If there was anything official going on it would be Kevin, Kevin said he feels closest to me and wants to work with me. I gladly accepted because I really like him. Not so sure if I'm the only one thats close to him though. I feel like he may be super close to some of his Canada buddies like Zach. They're both on AIM very late at night. Sometimes just the two of them. 

Needless to say I'm probably not doing as great as I thought I was. But we will see. I never like to start alliances I just like getting invited to them lol. I mean everyone I felt a good vibe and connection with I still feel the same about. I even feel like I get somewhere with Pilar and Charlotte sometimes. It's still hard to keep a convo going with them but I can still manage to talk some game with them. Hopefully things go well with the vote tomorrow. I've spoken around quite a bit about the vote with people. The only people I didn't really talk about the vote with is Sara and Vanessa. But Vanessa does have an idea of what I wanna do. But Jackie tells me that Vanessa is pushing for Aisha to stay lol. Jackie also thinks that Vanessa and Aisha seem a lot closer than meets the eye.  

We will see how tomorrow goes. Just gotta hope for the best. Wanna try for a video confessional later but you know how my internet goes. Well that's it for now. Until next time my friends

[heather]

OMG congrats on your first HoH win beautiful!!!

[Audrey]

-Week Two-
Ray not attempting to campaign as hard as Aisha, was making it really hard to not evict him. People knew I rather see Aisha leave, but when people were telling me that they wanted to keep her because she was actually trying, I ended up telling people to just evict Ray. I told them that it wouldn't be fair for her to leave if she's fighting to stay. As much as I wanted her gone, I knew it wouldn't happen. It sucks because for it being my first HoH I really wanted to prove to myself that it would go by great and for me, it didn't go well at all. I have no idea who the hinky vote was and I wish I knew lol. Gerry did tell me that she campaigned a little bit for Aisha to leave so maybe it was him? Not sure. Aisha also told me a few days ago that if she ends up staying, that she won't go after me. I loled. I'll believe that when I see it.

To make it worse, Aisha ends up winning HoH.

Lol like really? Out of all the people here that I wish had won, the one person I dreaded on winning ends up getting HoH. This seriously is just my luck. Vanessa said she will tell me if she finds out what Aisha is thinking, lol we'll see if that happens. After hearing multiple times that Vanessa was going around pushing for Aisha to stay last round, I won't be surprised if those two have some sort of bond. Also sometimes when ever I try and talk to Vanessa, she just won't reply even though she's online and talking to others. Then sometimes she replies back with no problem, so I don't know what the deal is.

I was invited into an alliance today.  Kevin told me that Gerry and him were talking earlier and said that they both enjoyed talking to me. They also said they enjoyed talking to Zach. And they wanted us four to team up together, so now thats a thing! I'm down for this. All three of them I have felt close to and when we do talk, we see eye to eye in a lot of things. 3 guys and 1 girl though lol yikes. But I honestly do like majority of the guys here more than the girls. Like Jackie is the only other girl that I like and get along with. I feel like her and I have each others backs pretty well. 

SPOILER: Click to show

It's nice that people think so greatly of me lol. But being considered this so early on in the game can be threatening to people I feel like. Also lol @ Sara for saying she didn't want me to win this HoH comp even though I wasn't eligible. Okay Sara, I see you. 


Keeping my head up. I want to attempt to talk to Aisha more tomorrow. I talked to her today somewhat and she seemed fine but that doesn't mean nothing lol. If do end up getting in danger, I won't be backing down easily. It's way too soon for me to go and I'm not ready to stop playing as Audrey just yet.

[Audrey]

I can't believe she didn't nominate me.

I fully expected her too. I talked to her a bit earlier before nominations. She had told me that she didn't know what she wanted to do. She said that nominating me was an option but that she really didn't want to do that. She was more concerned about who the hinky voter was. But still, I thought there was a chance of me going up because it would of been easier for her. Her nominating Gerry and Jackie being nominated wasn't surprising to me though. Jackie told me that Aisha had told her that Sara and Gerry were two people she saw were less active than the rest. Also Gerry I guess did campaign against Aisha last round from what he told me. In my opinion I think Gerry is pretty active. Also a few days ago Jackie told me that she finds it really hard to chat with Aisha because they never talk about anything interesting. They talked about taquitos once. I guess they never really talked game either from what Jackie was saying. All in all, I'm shocked that I'm not up, but I'm not complaining. I can either thank my social game for this or I can thank that hinky voter for taking some heat off me.

I really don't want Gerry or Jackie to leave. Why couldn't Aisha nominate Sara for crying out loud. She wasn't even around today it seemed like. Sara scares me also because she is someone I can see putting me up on the block. Never really talked any game either. I don't know if anyone thought it was weird that Aisha didn't put me up lol. They're probably wondering how I got off the hook. I really want both noms to stay safe though. In a way I want veto to be used and hope that someone else goes up that I wouldn't care if they left. But at the same time if veto is used then I feel like I could be the renom option. I talked to Gerry and he's so upset that he's up. He thinks its bulllshit that he's up for being inactive when he doesn't consider himself that. He says that Zach and Adam are possible people that will use veto on him if they were to win. 

People are reallllly looking into the majority rules answers lol. I mean Aisha based her noms on those answers. Gerry says that he doesn't trust Sara because she voted him as someone that would backstab. People keep telling me congrats on being most social but completely leaving out the F2 part lololol, I know that they remember that part they just don't wanna say it. It does worry me a bit that people bring stuff up from that comp now and then but theres nothing I can do about it. 

I continue to play AIM tag with Vanessa. I try and get ahold of her but she'll chat back when she wants too I guess.
 

Hoping that this week continues with me staying away from the block but also I hope someone joins the block that I wouldn't mind seeing get evicted. Gonna chat with more people tomorrow and try and see what on their minds for the most part. If Jackie and Gerry remain on the block, it will not be an easy decision for me.  If I do end up on the block as a renom then campaigning here I come!!!

[Audrey]

-Week Three-
Another round goes by and I'm safe to see another day lol. I've had people come to me asking how I was I not put up on the block by Aisha. Godfrey was really interested to hearing the reason. But to tell you the truth there isn't much to say about it lol. From my side, when Aisha and I were talking she seemed really interested in the hinky voter. She did tell me I was an option to put me up but that she didn't want to do that. I'm surprised just like anyone else in this house. Round 2 is over now though and I'm happy that it is.

Before going to bed after the veto ceremony Gerry told me he would have majority. The next morning I wake up and I'm hearing that Jackie has the majority. Jackie told me this herself. I was chatting around to see where peoples heads were at with the vote but everyone was so hush hush about it at first until I finally was getting some answers. I decided to talk to Aisha herself, she said she would rather keep Jackie here. Then Adam and I were talking and I told him that Jackie says she has majority. I gave him the names of those voters. He told me the same names. Pilar was keeping hush about her vote and didn't tell me anything but I kept hearing from other people that she was voting to evict Gerry. Gerry hadn't really campaigned much at all from what I was hearing from others and I don't think that helped him get votes.  I think the votes to evict Jackie were Kevin and Zach. I think they kept the votes the same to show their loyalty to Gerry. I hope i'm not in trouble with them for not voting with them lol. I haven't spoken to them since yesterday before votes were closed. I really did like and enjoy talking to Gerry, but voting against someone from my own clique and also the only one I'm close to from that clique, I felt wouldn't of been a good idea.

Brief Cast Analysis:

Adam- I like Adam, but I don't feel as close to him as I did in round one. I feel like theres some distance there and I want to fix that a bit. I want him to trust me but I feel like he doesn't to an extent. Have to work on that.

Aisha- Girl could of put me up on the block lol. But maybe she really is a girl true to her word because she did say that if she stayed in round one that she wouldn't be going after me. Still keeping a close eye on her though.

Audrey- This girl is a hot mess.

Charlotte- We chit chat here and there. I try and make her feel like she's safe with me but she's too quiet. I don't really get anything from her. Game talk is minimal with this one. But she's still better to talk to than some others.

Godfrey- I feel good with him. Sort of like Adam but I feel safer with Godfrey than I do with Adam. I really wanna work a better bond with him because I feel like I can work with him further down the road. Hopefully my instincts are right with this one.

Jackie- Probably the only one in clique USA that I feel close too. We talk a lot and I feel a bond. I hope the feeling is mutual. If she doesn't feel the same about me then I suck at reading people ahaha.

JMac- Love this guy but I wish he was on more. I feel distant and I want to work with him a little better. We touch base now and then but I wish it was more frequently. But I feel better about him than the next person from my clique that I will mention when I get to her name. 

Kevin- He's pretty much my favorite. I hope he continues to be despite the Gerry thing. My talks with him are stronger than the rest of the cast. He's not around much though. I know that some people say they hardly see him on and I hope that doesn't hurt him later on. He also reminds me of my relationship with Luke from RNF7 except Kevin doesn't talk about sex and ass and all that sexual stuff.

Michael- He's so nice. And other people think the same. No one can say a bad thing about him. We can't have that happen now can we?  I'M THE SWEET ONE AROUND HERE, THAT'S MY THING!!!
Lol, jk I guess I can shaaarreeee. But really now, Michael reminds me of someone I played in GVSE. This guy was all lovey dovey and sweet and caring at the begining and all of a sudden he became a bat out of hell!!! He raised havoc in the game and I was so miserable lol. I'm hoping Michael doesn't just snap one day and raise hell ahaha. So far I'm okay with him.

Penny- She had this party girl thing going on with her in the beginning and now ever since round one ended it's like she remained sober. I don't think I have the best connection with her. If she wins HoH I could be in danger possibly. 

Pilar- Still find it hard to talk to her. One word responses are not a favorite of mine to get but she loves giving them! She's another one that reminds me of someone I played with in GVSE. Some shy little girl who didn't talk much, then one day she just wrecked havoc. She went from underdog to the most un-liked player so quick! I try and try with her honestly but I feel like theres no hope with her. I don't wanna give up on her or anything but at least give me something to work with!

Sara- I really hope she doesn't get this HoH lol. We talk no game and thats probably what is hurting me with her. Lot's of people say her social game isn't great. She seems nice though from when I do talk to her. Just unfortunate that the bond isn't there between us. 

Vanessa- I don't really know if i can believe anything this girl says. In round one I heard from numerous people that her and Michael were PUSHING for Aisha to stay. But Vanessa would tell me, "Whatever you want to see happen this week then we can make it happen. " Well girl why are you pushing for people to stay then if you're saying you would do what I want? I feel like Vanessa, Aisha and Michael are a little closer than meets the eye. I also feel like they had a little say on what happened last round. Maybe Vanessa talking to Aisha is what kept me off the block? If that little bit is true then I'm thankful but still why isn't Vanessa ever wanting to game talk with me when I'm on? Why do we play AIM tag? Why doesn't she respond to me when I know she's talking to others?

Zach- I enjoy talking to him and I want to continue working with him along with Kevin. He's another one that I hope isn't upset with me not voting to keep Gerry. Hopefully I can talk to both of them soon and see where we stand. It shouldn't be anything too serious because Gerry was going to leave anyways just by all the votes against him.
 
I still have a lot of work to do with these people before I can feel safe with them. I felt so much safer in my position in RNF7 than I do here. It's keeping me on my toes. I'm not sure what I'll do if I get HoH. I think I sucked in the competition. But I hope someone from team USA wins. I just wanna be immune lol. Let's see how this round gooooeees!

[Ika / Diva]

Audrey's your Diva worthy... kisses




keep it up......

[Audrey]

I'm honored!! Thank you diva!  

[Audrey]

I just love group chats. Especially when I get out of class and see all these messages that I've missed. 

Kevin and I missed the group chat party. We were in the DR. (I'm in the back, in the full cocoon phase.)

[boog]

what kind of school do u got to at 2am

[Audrey]

Oct 28, 2015 6:36:42 GMT boog said:

what kind of school do u got to at 2am

Lol I get out at 10 pm on Tuesdays and Thursdays. I'm PST though