Post by godfrey on Nov 17, 2015 16:57:04 GMT
so vans gone. my once biggest friend and ally turned into a horrid, bitter, nasty person. it's tough cause like... i know she's a nice, fun person (when i'm on her good side) but i felt betrayed. it's hard to defend myself with her because she feels she's right, and also she wont answer me so i physically cannot defend myself, so i'm likely not getting any respect from her in the jury or in the final 2. ugh 
it just sucks that i get no closure with her. on one hand, she talked mad shit to everyone in the game and was a hateful, resentful person who didn't choose to understand my side. like, bitch, your not always right. what if i have a point, what if i offer some insight to your mind. she shoulda let me put in my 2 cents and hear me out before... lighting a fire on my name and my reputation to people who are still shaping their opinions of me. she was the one who started being scummy mcscumbag and i STILL chose to try and ammend things with her because i can see the faults in my actions aswell.
but on the other hand... i really enjoyed my time with van before shit went crazy. i feel like i have solid reasons for doing what i did, but van thinks i'm some nasty supervillain who steals babies and rubs dogshit onto clean clothes. like, i dont react with the most poise and charisma when i'm angry, but i at least tried to both fix and apologize for the stuff i did. van did neither, and she still had the gaul to shit on everyone about the stuff i did. i kept i civil and kept her reputation at heart and didn't let my opinion of her leak onto others you know.
anyways, it's over. i officially ousted my old alliance and its very real that i'm following them out the door with zach/aisha winning this coming hoh. all that shit i did could be for nothing but we'll see. i'm not gonna let myself tire out. when the eyes get droopy and the morale is low you gotta trudge further and harder and work more. shit doesn't get easier, it just gets more confusing, so if i plow through this storm i can make it out OK.
for starters, i'm gonna talk to aisha and zach more tonight. also, i'm gonna make a deal with kevin and maybe johnny. an interalliance within our big alliance. i'm hoping this'll improve my odds at staying in the game if pilar were to be sitting next to me on the block. couldn't hurt in the long run either right?
god reign isn't over, it's just starting baby. time to crack the knuckles and shake the shoulders cause it's time for me to make more moves and keep myself standing in this game.
it just sucks that i get no closure with her. on one hand, she talked mad shit to everyone in the game and was a hateful, resentful person who didn't choose to understand my side. like, bitch, your not always right. what if i have a point, what if i offer some insight to your mind. she shoulda let me put in my 2 cents and hear me out before... lighting a fire on my name and my reputation to people who are still shaping their opinions of me. she was the one who started being scummy mcscumbag and i STILL chose to try and ammend things with her because i can see the faults in my actions aswell.
but on the other hand... i really enjoyed my time with van before shit went crazy. i feel like i have solid reasons for doing what i did, but van thinks i'm some nasty supervillain who steals babies and rubs dogshit onto clean clothes. like, i dont react with the most poise and charisma when i'm angry, but i at least tried to both fix and apologize for the stuff i did. van did neither, and she still had the gaul to shit on everyone about the stuff i did. i kept i civil and kept her reputation at heart and didn't let my opinion of her leak onto others you know.
anyways, it's over. i officially ousted my old alliance and its very real that i'm following them out the door with zach/aisha winning this coming hoh. all that shit i did could be for nothing but we'll see. i'm not gonna let myself tire out. when the eyes get droopy and the morale is low you gotta trudge further and harder and work more. shit doesn't get easier, it just gets more confusing, so if i plow through this storm i can make it out OK.
for starters, i'm gonna talk to aisha and zach more tonight. also, i'm gonna make a deal with kevin and maybe johnny. an interalliance within our big alliance. i'm hoping this'll improve my odds at staying in the game if pilar were to be sitting next to me on the block. couldn't hurt in the long run either right?
god reign isn't over, it's just starting baby. time to crack the knuckles and shake the shoulders cause it's time for me to make more moves and keep myself standing in this game.
