I mean he's only doing it in the hopes that Pelaar and Kevin were lying to me and are actually vote in Charlotte while everyone else boats for Johnny and that way it'll tie and then I'll have to break the tie to evict him in the same way that he was the reason for the tie that evicted Adam. and this whole move is because of that reason so it would be very poetic that Johnny lied about saving Charlotte in order to be evicted beside her a few rounds later
now I'm freaking out that Charlotte is going home instead of jmac and I'm gonna scream lmao! literally if this goes wrong I'm down putting up a nice face for Kevin and pilar and Godfrey I'm going full on fucking war mode. they want sparks? they'll fucking get sparks.
I'm literally so mad at these fucking two faced pieces of shit. I knew they were gonna try to pull some shit like this! only problem is we have been falsely labeling pilar as their leader when I really think it's Kevin.
which makes me want to punch him in the face
if this was the real fucking game Aisha would be fuckin screaming right now. like as soon as it was announced as I tie she would've plastered the game at fucking no teeth grin, cocked her head and stood up.
and then she'd pop the fuck awf! like. seriously??? NAH I'm really not fucking here for this. I'm D o n e with the bullshit!
so yall know how a couple rounds ago i was like "fuck my alliance i'm going rogue"
well, i know i never actually went rogue, but i swear i'm not pulling a sierra dawn thomas here.
the thing is, my options at that point were very clear! i could
stick with my alliance that just turned on one of our own and was clearly going down
flip to the opposing alliance where i would definitely be at the bottom and an early casualty
stay with the people from my alliance i actually trusted while being open and honest with the other side until cracks were capable for manipulation
and the third option has finally come into fruition. with the live round, my loyalty to michael and zachary is even more cemented, kevin and pilar have splintered giving me kevins loyalty (something i knew i had, but now is firmly in my court considering he and pilar are only mad at each other because he refused to nominate me), and penny is done being the transparent middle player that she's been since the jackie round.
my loyalty to michael and zachary is nothing to really focus on. its been known, its readily apparent, and its not changing anytime soon. we have all been through enough together that i really cant see either flipping on me anytime soon. we have been outnumbered together, we have been lied to together, we have survived evictions together, we have manipulated together. there is really not much to say since we are completely solid as a group.
everything else is what deserves my attention right now.
lets start with kevin and pilar. so, kevin and i have been close enough since the beginning. i've always felt we were both a little fake to each other in our conversations, but i think we both were keeping each other as solid options down the road if need be. i get bad ian from tsg vibes from him, and if thats the case itll be so LOL that we worked together bc i actively despise him lmao, but that doesnt affect this current situation.
so kevin is who first admitted to being scared about the frozen five alliance to me (thanks again jackie for blowing everything up and almost destroying my game because you were mad at people who werent me :~) love u so fckn much :~)) and so that got the ball rolling for us post-jury phase. pre jury phase was just a bunch of aw we are cute haha bae haha wow ily haha shit. nothing special, nothing of substance. just that gross shit that doesnt actually affect the game. however! since then, we have had a much different kind of vibe. whereas i knew he was lying to me and against me and never gonna be completely truthful with me, i knew it wasn't directed at ME, but at the people with me. so, as much as that doesnt help me, it also doesnt hurt me, per se. so i work him as much as i can and i give him info and i throw out occasional seeds of mistrust that probably were falsified, and he does the exact same to me.
after jmac's eviction, when he admitted to me that he planned on evicting charlotte, i was ready to blow up and drop his ass. i was ready to post a public living room call out thread. i was ready to explode.
but then he won hoh and that had to be put on hold, because i had to be back to sweetheart aisha who would never hurt him ha :~)
it was shitty bc i knew he was a lying little asshole who hadnt been completely truthful with me the entire season but i had to pretend like i was none the wiser. and it worked. he nominated my two closest allies, and i was spared.
if pilar had won that hoh, i wouldve been toast.
if zach had won that pov, michael would have been toast.
luckily, michael won the hoh, and here is where the cracks officially fissured.
kevin is complaining to me about someone who is pushing hard for me to be the replacement nominee. out of the options presented, it was obviously pilar, but i made sure he knew he did not have to tell me who if he didnt want to and i wouldnt hold it against him. so as soon as he names charlotte as the replacement nominee, he fesses up. its pilar. and he throws out like three "fuck her"s and i knew things were a GO for aisha getting further in this fucking game.
zach and michael are freaking out bc penny wont vote to save zach and michael curses her out and says she is no longer team australia and penny fusses to me about michael and charlotte is adorable and pilar continues to not message me which is fine because i honestly hate trying to communicate with her and now i can officially not worry about talking to her bc she's my fuckin nemesis.
zach is almost down and out, and i tell him he can sell me out if he needs to. anything to keep him alive. i love him and i need this.
and so he does just that. he sells me out to pilar about what kevin told me. which blows her up at kevin and she curses him out and he comes to me mad i told pilar - but i didn't, and i only told zach, which makes him less upset. pilar decides to give kevin a big fuck you and saves zach.
zach, innocent angel, has manipulated pilar into submission. and hopefully he has manipulated her into her last round of this fucking game.
i'm beyond pleased by this turn of events. pilar vs kevin? this is the shit we have been waiting for for weeks in this game. of course if they were smart theyd just use it against us but pilar is never here and way too selfish to be that smart about anything.
so, moving past the beautiful kevin v pilar feud, we have penny now clinging to me for support in this game.
i'm wondering if she's realized she has no shot at winning yet. her only two options to win in finals were jmac and charlotte who have both left back to back (which is even funnier bc she noms charlotte.... then she votes against charlotte.... then she votes to keep charlotte and she goes LOL)
penny has been pretty impressionless for the majority of the game, and i'm sure she's been busy being a humanitarian or whatever but she's really had no impact. her middle man act was seen by everyone but it threatened no one because it was just... penny. all she did was talk about drinking.
zach admitted to me that her shtick really turned him off bc its all she would ever talk about - which is weird bc penny is like a pro dancer or whatever not an alcoholic as far as i know lol. but he doesnt mind that i, too, am a raging alcoholic bc all my conversations arent just IM DRUNK! ALCOHLO! WOO! but i'll come home and be like lol i'm tipsy, anyway how is the political climate?
i just really love zach thats all
anyway back 2 penny its so easy to forget i'm talking about her yall.
shes worried bc of her fight with michael. i know he went to her and apologized and all, but penny is just not down for his constant split second blowups. he's had several, most notably with pilar and zach before, and now penny. and he always calls things "retarded" which isnt cool to begin with but penny is like adamantly against it and called him out for it i think
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every eviction has brought heaps of drama into the game and i keep avoiding it somehow when im right here in the center of it all. im sure everyone notices but i think i can avoid the block if the right ppl win hoh the next few rounds.
