although i gotta say i'm kinda tired of seeing people that i like leave. i hope jackie doesn't hear that i was trying to make something work with adam and penny and others to keep gerry around.
so i'm good ol hoh and that's awesome. i kinda asked around, and i also kinda gave it some thought. see, my issue with aisha's reign is that she nominated 2 active, passionate people. we got into the icky and sticky part of the game a little early cause of that choice. she knew gerry wasn't inactive, she's not stupid. her calling him inactive is just straight up dumb, especially when you got john, sara, and charlotte lurking around in places. her choice to nominate jackie was also questionable.
i want to nominate the corpses just laying around. the ACTUAL corpses, not the people who are active but dont talk to me. i'm talkin about the people who are universally inactive. john, sara, charlotte are all on the list for me.
but then the shitty part of my brain is going "godfrey you idiot! what if people gun for you next" and i just gotta shut that side up. yeah, i might get nominated even if i'm going the nice and fair way and going for the inactive people but if everyone just goes for the active people then we're gonna end up with a johnny mac winner and that wouldn't be fair. plus, i legit have no idea who i would even nominate if i went for active people.
the shitty part of my brain is also going like "your wasting your goddamn hoh godfrey!" and so i gotta make use of this somehow. i'm thinking of going to adam and asking him if he wants to set up an alliance of sorts. multiple people. i'd like penny and someone else up in there. i'll do the math and find some key people to include. i dont want this hoh to JUST be spent getting rid of some useless people, i want this hoh to put me forward in the game!
hell yeah, otherwise i think i'm killin it socially. i dunno what's with jackie but she's a little off to me. otherwise i think i'm fine. i'm thinking of telling jackie that some people were trying to save gerry and i was in that group mostly cause i really liked gerry, but it wasn't against her. it was a shitty nomination round overall, and i gotta be honest about that. i have a feeling the fact that i was thinking of saving gery is floating around and jackie might've heard it, cause she's been acting different with me n shit.
so i told jackie that kevin was leading a charge to save gerry. i'm doing it to mostly save my own skin, cause maybe telling jackie about what was going on will raise my graces with her and shit. plus if she tells kevin about what i said, it's not like he can nominate me lol!
well sara didn't like being nominated, and she also didn't like the reasons i gave her for being nominated. i told her i hadn't spoken to her these last few days, and she' goes ape shit and begins assuming that i have ulterior motives.
lol sara, why would i have ulterior motives to get out your lazy ass. if i wanted you specifically out, i woulda put her up against mikey or someone else.
but yeah, i didn't handle the conflict well. we fought for a few hours (during my bio class, thanks!) and she was filled with this saltyness and bitterness. she feels like i should nominate based on strategy, not activity, when... i dunno, i think it's in my best interest to see the inactives go.
mac daddy handled his nomination well, so i like me some jmac.
haha so like, that shit i did in dicevivor and posting in the wrong boards was on accident, but that's the kind of shit that makes people think that i'm an idiot.
cause really i am an idiot, but i'm also not
you follow?
here lemme explain it this way. you know those kids that are hella smart but just can't really hold conversations? mostly from high school, right? like their cool and nice and get the grades that we are all jealous of but they just dont really like to talk to people? i'm like the opposite lol
i think i'm good at talking to people but i can't think strategically all that well. so i milk my conversations to try and pull away from my shitty strategic sense and common sense.
i think it's working. just gotta act like the fool. i like what i said in my first confessional: in a game of kings and queens, i'm gonna be the jester, and im gonna make it work.